December 2009
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Why me?
I know I shouldn’t be so down about what’s happen to me but I wanna know why me. It’s hard not to be reminded. I have to take pills twice a day. I wake up in pain. I can’t do all the things I wanted to do. My body isn’t so strong. Why was I chosen to have this sickness? Why must I endure all this pain? Why does it have to be me?
Everyday is a struggle for me....
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In all honesty
I’ve become less afraid to love since Chris came into my life. He showed me that I had nothing to fear because he’d never hurt me. He never wants to see my cry or in pain. Always on the brighter side of things. Making sure that no matter what I am more than okay. He finds ways to keep a smile on my face so I won’t be so down about this sickness I have. He tells me I will get...
11 hints for LIFE.
bittersweetsin:
1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. 2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. 3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a...
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Wishing.
It’s hard but sometimes, it’s easier with someone with you…right now, things will be broken, it’s up to you to fix them. I just wish that right now, I was strong. I fall weak to him, as he as weak to me. It sucks, he’s not here. I really want him here for christmas. It would mean a lot to me. A whole fucking lot. someone.make.my.wish.come.true
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I hope this doesn't happen again.
I had this messed up dream that was in another dream that was in like 3 others. It’s messed up because in each other Chris broke up with me in different ways. Ways that made me not eat, not sleep, and cry every night. In these dreams, he told me he didn’t love me anymore, that he couldn’t handle my crap anymore and that I’m not who he thought I was. I woke up from each of...
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Time
I have all the time in the world to become someone. I have all the time in the world to see the world. I have all the time. But right now, patience is what I need. Time goes by slower and slower every time I just sit and think about him. I need him here. It’s wearing thin and I’m gonna burst. I wanna just go to an open field and scream. Christmas is near and I’m a bomb about to...
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To say the least
He’s everything to me. Words can’t even explain how great of a love I have. His name is Christopher Lomboy Santa Ana. Tough times and hard times we still have that love we know is there. A lot of the time, I’m speechless. He’s something, he’s someone, I never wanna lose. Someone I will love for a long time. Someone I’d do anything to make happy. To say the...
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I feel like leaving this world tonight. I can’t breathe anyway. It’s fine. I wanna go get lost. Hoping no one finds me. Lay in the park curled up in the grass looking at the stars. Who cares if it rains.
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Think about it
Right now, at this very moment, you are on my mind. My worries are very little but when you worry, or are uncertain about me, it makes me worry even more. My worries turn into wonders, those wonders turn into bad thoughts, those bad thoughts turn into fears. I already fear that I don’t make you happy enough. I already fear that I could lose you. I already fear that I’m not good enough....
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Sometimes
I just feel like I’m not good enough but then he tells me, I am better than good enough. Am I truly good enough?
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900 people get swine flu and everyone puts on a...
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